Setting the tone - Introduction

Hi! This is my first blog, and I have mixed feelings about it. Well, I thought of writing a blog several times, but every time I just couldn't. I know I have experiences that people could learn from and get to see things from a different perspective. I wanted to reach out to a wider audience. To reach out to a wider audience, I needed to be famous! (LoL, that will take a while).

Honestly, all this chitter chatter in my head stopped when my boyfriend posted his first blog. It inspired me to start. He is writing about his journey to quit smoking. I will be writing about my traumatic experiences - the experiences that made me rethink a lot of choices and decisions in my life. (I am somehow tearing up while writing this).

The reason I am writing this blog is because 2022-2023 were not (really) kind to me. Everyone has their fair share of troubles, and I have mine. The rollercoaster in my life started in the year 2022 when I decided I should pursue my higher education in the States. I thought I could take on those challenges, but boy I was wrong! In 2022, my 5-year long relationship came to an end. I had parted ways with my ex-boyfriend because he cheated on me. More on him later. I am currently dating a guy who in terms of Gen Z is a green flag. I will call him a green forest, to be honest. He has helped me like no one has in my life!

So, about my life - I moved to the States, found the most toxic flatmates one could wish for, and had a mental breakdown that led to 2 months of me going back and forth to get my treatment, got scammed for $9000, went into borderline depression - (not self-professed), had suicidal thoughts, and got to know my parents have been a pathetic influence on me. Now, I am trying to keep all of this aside because I have to make a name and career for myself and to get myself out of this shitty rabbit hole that I somehow ended up in.

Right now, I am unsure where my life is headed. I have not given up on myself as yet. All this has taught me to be a stronger person. Let me just say it, it is not easy at all!! It is taking every ounce of my energy to let go of past experiences and not let them define me. 

So let's just say that if you think this emotional rollercoaster is your juice, I will be deep diving into each episode of my life. I am writing the blog in the hope of figuring myself out as well.